God Sees the Heart

It's about that time again. After midnight = best time to write! My mind is racing! But tonight, something different is keeping me up. My heart feels torn. Here's what I'm feeling all at once. Peace. Love. Confusion. Disappointment. Hurt. Crazy, I know. A lot has been weighing heavy on me. A lot. Things in my life I never thought I'd go through. When you grow up in church all your life, you never really think of all the different situations you might face. Being a human is hard. Being imperfect is hard.
At the glorious age of 25, my life has taken me places I thought I'd never go. And you say, "Well, you just ended up in Pike County, Illinois!! That's not very adventurous!" But I'm not just talking about geographically. Yes, I moved from Tennessee to Barry. Then we moved to Elgin. Then we moved back to Barry. Woo wee! Lol Again...not what I'm talking about. Becoming a parent really changes the way you think about things. Even spiritually. For example, I've been challenged to study my Bible  as if I'd never heard anything from It before in my life. I dare you to give that one a try. Changed my life. I found how loving Jesus is. And I found how easy He has made it for His children to please Him. I think we beat ourselves up too much. Yes, we go through hard times, and we have struggles. But God blesses. And He loves us. He does things for a reason. He cares. He provides in ways that make our jaws drop. We may be horrible human beings who just can't get our act together sometimes, but God loves us despite all that we are. And He just wants us to glorify Him and please Him and tell others about Him. Should be fairly easy to do since we know just how vastly He loves us. We love Him, because He first loved us.
(Notice I'm not doing points...This isn't a sermon. This is my random thoughts and feelings pouring through the tips of my thumbs).
Let me just say something again....God loves us. He loves you. Even if you've never acknowledged Him once I'm your entire life, He loves you. I can't imagine walking up to a stranger and loving them so much I can't stand it. God loves you more than anyone can ever imagine. I love the song "The Love of God." I love the lines, "To write the love of God above would drain the oceans dry. Nor could the scroll contain the whole though stretched from sky to sky." Think about that. That is a lot of love, my friends. Who else could love you that much? He's your Creator.
I've been thinking about how much God loves me. And how cruel people can be. Sometimes we need to give people a break. We can be so judgy, and think we know how a person's life is supposed to be run. Just because it's not how WE think they ought to dress or act, gives us no right to look down on someone, or think we are better than them. I know I've said before I like to try to put myself in others' shoes. We have no idea what a person can be struggling with on the inside. All we can see is the outside. God loves us, and He wants to help us. People can make it worse. People can say one little thing, and it can ruin our spirits. Someone said something to me recently, and I can't stop thinking about it. It probably took them 3 seconds to say what they did. It didn't hurt at first, but the more I think about it, the more it hurts. God sees that. People may not even know something is wrong. They just judge you based on what's on the outside. There's more to people than looks. We may not be able to see people the way God does. But I think we can try. Ask yourself, "What if that was me?" Be loving. Be considerate of people. You have no idea what someone is going through, and if they are almost at their breaking point or not. Like I said, you can't see that. But God can.
Listen, I know these thoughts are super jumbled. But you can get what I'm saying. Be mindful what you say to others. Love others as much as you can. God loves them just as much as He does you. Be careful what you do to other people. A little bit of kindness goes a long way. You know it made your day when someone was nice to you, or when someone helped you.
I have peace knowing God loves me, and wants what is best for me. I know He is leading me. Sometimes in our lives we get sensitive. Sometimes we let what others say go down deep in our hearts. God can heal that. He can heal it before it turns into bitterness.
Wow. He loves us. He loves you. He loves me. I feel so secure. There's nothing like the feeling of knowing God is right there with you.
Even through these struggles I'm going through, God shows me His love and gives me His peace. I'm so thankful for it. Everyone struggles. God's there for you.